VEERESH
The Pune Talks
Chapter I
Introduction to the Dance Meditation
Veeresh:
"I like to say thank you for coming tonight. I was in Holland, just before I came, where I live, and my friends were asking me, what I plan to do when I go to Poona. I said, I want to honour my father; He (Osho) is my spiritual father.
I want to give praise to the 21 (the Inner Circle) for the hard job they have in trying to administer His amazing dream. If you look at Gandha, how she is shaking all the time, trying to keep things in the perfect balance; it is quite a job. I want praise you (all) for also to carry out His dream and for making it into a reality.
The last time I was here is about eight years ago, and I could not accept that He left his body. I could not do it, it was just to hard for me to accept. Somewhere, Garimo found out about this, and then suddenly, she is taking me step by step to the Burning Gates, and telling me exactly what happened in each corner. I was crying like a baby. Then finally, she says: "And this is the space where he was burnt." And then, I really cried, I could not stop crying and when I opened my eyes all this Indians were standing there in silence just looking.
I was invited to stay in the Ashram, and I am always saying, "yes, but - yes, but". I was sitting here in White Robe and everything was okay, His seat came out, everything was okay, and then suddenly the screen comes down - and there He is! And then I started to cry again; it just touched me so much.
I realise, if I look really hard, He is in all your eyes. And He is not really taken off, He is really here. I thank you, all of you, for being such beautiful human beings. This is not happening anywhere in the world! And I walk by and I see so many beautiful people, - shiny eyes. You give me so much inspiration.
I want to play a song for you. We made it as a tribute for this Osho 2000 festival:
(Following are the starting words from the Osho Dance meditation CD)
"Just for a moment, imagine being Osho,
looking at the world through His eyes,
feeling with His heart,
loving with His being, you know,
you have planted the seeds,
the roses have blossomed,
your sannyasins are ready to create Paradise on earth..."
* * * I imagine being in charge of administrating this commune.
Many years ago, I think it was called Poona 1, I was in the Blue Diamond. I had this urge to eat a bacon sandwich so I felt a bit guilty and I was hiding in the back. I was having a beer and was eating the bacon sandwich. I look up and what do I see?
Mukta and her daughter coming straight towards me and I wanted to hide under the table with the bacon sandwich...but I was a bit caught. They come over: "Hello, Veeresh." The young daughter says: "You're eating a bacon sandwich!!!" I felt really terrible and then they left.
I said to myself: "Veeresh, you haven't heard the end of this." And what happens? A Ma came walking straight towards me saying: "I want to see you in the front office."
So I start walking from the Blue Diamond talking to myself: "I like bacon sandwiches. What's wrong with bacon sandwiches?" And by the time I get to the front office I'm about to scream "I love bacon sandwiches!" I walk in and there is this little woman Lakshmi, and I am ready to scream from the top of my lungs "I have a right to eat bacon sandwiches!" She looks up and says: "Veeresh, Bhagwan wants to know if you want to take home one of his seats." And I go... (shaking) Can you imagine me wanting to scream at her?
Yes, I was in Brazil last year and I heard what was going on, about the politics in the Ashram.
Once in Europe I had an argument with one of the Mas that was coming by. I remember writing to Bhagwan at the time in a letter: "Get her off my back or I'm going to create a big stink." He wrote back and said: "Don't worry about her, but it will not help my work." I got shocked, I was ego-tripping and not helping his work by saying "Get her off my back or I'll create a big stink!" He said "It will not help my work". Then I understood that it was just my stupid trip. No, it will not help his work.
Last year I heard these ups and down with politics in the ashram and I was saying: "It is not helping his work, it is really not helping his work." I wished I could be here to tell everybody to drop their trips - just drop it. We are here to do his work, that is the only reason. I love this man so much and it hurts me when I hear all these trips going on - but then I understand it has to happen...(applause)
Enough of this stuff. We are going to do the Dance Meditation that is dedicated to him. The first part is called the Market Place. Pretend you are in a market place. Everybody stand up.
(Dancing to the Market Place of the Osho Dance Meditation)
* * * Imagine that it is Poona 2, and I am walking around trying to avoid situations.
Anando comes over to me. She very slowly puts this watch in my hand and she says: "This is a watch from Osho." I felt like I almost crushed it with my hand. She says: "Be ready in front of his house because he wants to talk to you." I am jumping up and down with this watch in my fist. I am so happy.
She comes and takes me into the house. I am so excited! I am jumping! I don't know whether to pee... We are walking and I say: "What is that?" And she says: "That is His kitchen." I say: "Can I see it?" She says yes. I go in there and start looking at things. She says: "You better come." I say yes, yes, yes. She takes me down the hallway again, and I say: "What is that?" "That is His library." I say: "Can I see it?" And she says yes. I go in and look at all the books and start to feel... he says: "You better come." I say okay, okay, okay. Finally she leads me through the hallway - I am jumping - so happy I am going to see him. Then she comes out and says: "It is too late, he is eating."
So if you are slow you miss!
We are going to the Tribal Dance. I learned it from the Brazilian people. It is a very beautiful dance, it is a tribal dance. I think it will turn out to be a mess with so many people here. The way it goes is you form a line of men and a line of women, a line of men and a line of women... several lines. If you are confused raise your hand and my staff will figure you out.
(We are all dancing joyfully and chaotically the The Tribal Dance, followed by the Buddha Hall Dancing part)
* * * I would like to share with you the last time I saw Osho. I was in Holland, trying to figure out a way to get close to him, so I sent him a letter saying: "I would like to interview you." I got a letter back from the Commune saying that he was not giving interviews any more, but I could have a photo session. So I said "Yeah!"
I came here and I was so excited I could not come to the Ashram. I spent three days hanging out with my friends and lovers. Every time people asked me if I had been to the Ashram I said: "No, I have Indian stomach." Everybody said "poor baby". That was supposed to be diarrhoea.
Finally the time comes. They said that Osho is not talking since he has had all his teeth taken out. Then the opportunity came, I am standing next to him. I am so excited! I am standing next to him and the lights are going on and off - the cameras and the flashes. They start changing the light bulbs and the film.
Suddenly Osho looks at me and says: "How is your health?" I figured out that the word had got back to him that I had Indian stomach. I looked at him and said: "My health is great! How is your health?" He smiled and said: "I am OK."
They were changing the cameras, and then very strange, usually when somebody wants to shake your hand they put out the right hand, but suddenly he put out his left hand. I did not know what to do, so I said to myself 'Veeresh, this is your last opportunity, go for it!' So I grabbed his left hand and while they were changing the cameras, I went for it, and I went (kissing)...
I started to kiss his hand and when I looked I realised that my tears were all over his hands and I was shocked. I grabbed my robe and started to rub... Then I looked up at him and he was LAUGHING! At that moment...it was like...the turn of the century, like lights coming out of the Eiffel Tower! I was lost. He was laughing and I was laughing.
I realised that if he had told me: "Veeresh, my health is really bad, I am not feeling very well and I don't want to go out to Buddha Hall." He could not tell me that because I would have said: "Don't go out there, stay with me." He could only say "I am very good, Veeresh." And I think that that's what friends do for each other. They don't want to worry each other and he gave me that opportunity. He said "I'm OK." I just wanted to share that with you.
We are going to do the last part of the Dance Meditation, called Mama, going back to the beginning.
(Mama, followed by Namaste)
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